At the core of seeking is a strange paradox: the illusory "me" longs to get rid of itself but recoils at the thought of annihilation—it can't conceive of life without itself. This is not an obstacle to be overcome but the very engine of the search. Desire for absence and fear of annihilation are two sides of the same coin—forever spinning with no final landing. It's a recurring push and pull without an outcome. There is no resolution to this paradox, but none is needed. Liberation occurs effortlessly and entirely on its own, regardless of the illusory self's desires and fears.